Apparently the saying “you learn a new thing every day” does hold some truth. Though in my case it’s more of a “you learn something every day, but it takes several months and quite a lot of stumbles before it takes”.
Case in point: BLOGGING.
As much as I love giving progress reports and updates on what it is I’m working on, I’m far more comfortable talking about it on Twitter or face-to-face with a friend. If I have to write up a post, it feels too much like writing about nothing. It’s this overwhelming feeling I get (social anxiety – a gift that keeps on giving) where it feels wrong and pointless to get peoples attention without something significant to present. No book (because, you know, it’s getting written or edited), so what’s the point of a separate post just to tell people where I’m at. Result? A post every couple of months that gets posted, because I feel like I should put something new out there.
Having a full-time job doesn’t help either. Though I enjoy it a lot, it’s a challenging one. And it’s full of changes and all the stress that comes with them. It does pull my focus away sometimes.
And here’s the thing I learned (now that it finally sunk in):
I write the most when my life is stable and I’m not dealing with too much stress. Routine really helps me, especially if it’s a quiet one that doesn’t involve too much external noise. I know, how very introvert of me.
So I spent a lot of time this past year in an effort to eliminate as much stress out of my life as possible because I figured that my mental health is important and I can’t achieve what I want in life if I’m a big ball of anxiety who can’t even enjoy the success.
So maybe I won’t be blogging on a schedule (going against all the advice people have for writers who want to develop a platform), and maybe the posts will not be as SEO friendly as they should be, but they will be more personable and more personal. Because why not?
Take a deep breath, me, there’s a whole world out there, waiting for you. It’s not going anywhere.