The following is a sentimental post. You have been warned.
I’ve been writing for years now. I started to dabble in writing stories back in high school, though at the very beginning, I kept it short or… well… or I never finished. It took me years of writing shorter fanfics before I agreed to take on a challenge and write a story that was 20k. After that, once I knew I was capable of writing complete, long stories, there was nothing that could stop me from writing more long stories.
In the recent years I turned to writing novels with explicit plan of one day publishing my work. Right now I have three finished first drafts, I’m working on the fourth one, and if everything goes according to plan next year I’ll see my first book hit the market.
I’ve been asked why I keep writing despite the fact that I’m not seeing any direct results and the truth is, I write because I love it. I would tell stories even if publishing my stories were not a possibility. I would write tales of werewolves and heroes and mysteries, even if it meant writing longhand in my notebooks, then hiding them away in a locked drawer. In fact I had done it for years when the Internet wasn’t such a big thing and websites were still hosted on angelfire.
I told stories that were fusions of material that I loves, I wrote Mary Sues and fanfics of varied quality. I learned how to weave a narrative and create characters, and I was hungry for more. I’m not going to lie, there are days when writing is hard and I wonder how am I even capable of stringing a sentence. But I keep writing, because I love it.
I always read about writers who put in thousands of words everyday for weeks if not months at a time. A pace like that doesn’t seem like something I’d be capable of, not in the long run. I know, because I have tried. But not being prolific isn’t reason enough for me to stop. Just because I will never experience the breathtaking lightining fast success, doesn’t mean I will give up. I wouldn’t be able, even if I tried. Not for long.
And here I am, writing away and getting things ready for publication. And after the release day comes and goes, I will continue to write.
Because I love it.