Sometimes, tomorrow comes three days later. Shut up.
I know I said I’d post my 2021 goals “tomorrow”, but when you spend your days off watching k-dramas till 3 am and getting up at 1pm, there’s only so much that can get done.
But it was amazing. I really got my batteries recharged.
I’m ready for the new year and all the things I want to accomplish.
I’ve learned a lot about myself as a writer and about my craft (and what it needs to improve) last year, but the most important thing (that I didn’t include in my yearly wrap up) is that I somewhat lost the joy and enthusiasm for my writing. I did feel like I was just going through the motions, taking steps forward a goal I set up.
It wasn’t until I started learning Korean in November that I was able to juxtapose my emotions when learning a new language and what I was experiencing when writing/editing.
I realized that I’ve been at this for the past decade if not more, but somewhere along the line, I lost the child-like awe at the opportunity to tell a story. The enthusiasm of getting the words fall on the page to create a whole new world.
I realized I lost my why.
So, for 2021, a year that came after the global pandemic took over the world and we’ve all learned more about ourselves and what we need in life; I will be rediscovering why I love writing. And if I still love it the way I used to.
I will try to find my why (because apparently my reasons so far were not significant enough), to see how it impacts my writing life going forward.
I will work on only one story this year, with no expectations of finishing it, should I realize I no longer want to pursue writing as anything other than a hobby.
I don’t know what’s waiting for me at the end of this exploration. In fact, I will try my best not to have any kind of expectations about this year. I want to be satisfied with whatever the outcome might be and whatever conclusions I arrive at. So, keep your fingers crossed for me. Let’s see where this year takes us.