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2021 – a year of exploration

Sometimes, tomorrow comes three days later. Shut up.

I know I said I’d post my 2021 goals “tomorrow”, but when you spend your days off watching k-dramas till 3 am and getting up at 1pm, there’s only so much that can get done.

But it was amazing. I really got my batteries recharged.

I’m ready for the new year and all the things I want to accomplish.

I’ve learned a lot about myself as a writer and about my craft (and what it needs to improve) last year, but the most important thing (that I didn’t include in my yearly wrap up) is that I somewhat lost the joy and enthusiasm for my writing. I did feel like I was just going through the motions, taking steps forward a goal I set up.

It wasn’t until I started learning Korean in November that I was able to juxtapose my emotions when learning a new language and what I was experiencing when writing/editing.

I realized that I’ve been at this for the past decade if not more, but somewhere along the line, I lost the child-like awe at the opportunity to tell a story. The enthusiasm of getting the words fall on the page to create a whole new world.

I realized I lost my why.

So, for 2021, a year that came after the global pandemic took over the world and we’ve all learned more about ourselves and what we need in life; I will be rediscovering why I love writing. And if I still love it the way I used to.

I will try to find my why (because apparently my reasons so far were not significant enough), to see how it impacts my writing life going forward.

I will work on only one story this year, with no expectations of finishing it, should I realize I no longer want to pursue writing as anything other than a hobby.

I don’t know what’s waiting for me at the end of this exploration. In fact, I will try my best not to have any kind of expectations about this year. I want to be satisfied with whatever the outcome might be and whatever conclusions I arrive at. So, keep your fingers crossed for me. Let’s see where this year takes us.

2020 in Review – well that was a year

Year of editing

At the beginning of the year, I named 2020 The Year of Editing. I wanted to edit three projects. And despite all the things that happened this year, I managed to work on editing two of my bigger novels. I didn’t get as far with it as I wanted but at the end of the year, I still feel very accomplished.


For two reasons.

  1. I could see how clearly I improved over the years and that made me feel so good. Because it’s one thing to keep writing over the years and looking at the statistics regarding time spent and word counts reached each year. It’s a completely different thing to see what I’ve started in 2015, then look at something I’ve written in 2018 and juxtapose the two. The difference is staggering and even though I saw a lot (A LOT) of stuff that needed fixing, I can still see all the improvements in my craft. I have learned a lot over the years and I’m putting it in practice each time. Every time I open Scrivener and start writing, I’m getting better.

  2. I learned a lot about what my writing and what kind of work I need to do to prepare for writing, in order to lessen the amount of editing I will be forced to do in the future.

Those realizations heavily impacted what I want to accomplish in 2021 (so stay tuned for my goals post tomorrow).

Pandemic impact

And while normally, I would heavily focus in my “Year in Review” post on my writing career, this year has been different and everything I experienced, I experienced through the lens of the pandemic.

COVID didn’t impact my finances, as my corporate job quickly and smoothly transitioned into remote work. Practically speaking, I didn’t have issues with lockdown (though it did impact me mentally) and I was able to stay in as much as possible, to limit my exposure to the virus. I’ve been incredibly privileged in comparison to other people  who were clearly struggling, both financially and mentally.

It made me reevaluate what I need in my life and what brings me joy. What I want to focus on and what can bring me closer to my ultimate goals.

Pandemic bingo

I want to end this post on a funny note (because pandemic itself is very depressing) to share that I have completed Pandemic Bingo this year:

  1. I learned how to make bread
  2. I learned how to make homemade pizza
  3. I got more movement in as I went out for walks during warmer months.
  4. I saved up a lot of money by cutting a lot of transportation and take out expenses
  5. I started learning a foreign language (hello Korean)

And how was your year?

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